The emptiness inside me is for real,
My life is meaningless, I feel,
Not once but twice, cheated,
With malice was I treated.
I was down and out, inconsolable,
In rage, undeniable.
Turmoil flooded days of mine,
Sleepless teary nights from nine.
I laugh at myself, half crying,
With every smile, unfailingly lying.
Scorching memories hurt the most,
waves of remorse hit heart’s coast.
Every moment I think, am I the man I Am not supposed to be?
Or is it just, all I don’t have, that I see?
Don’t I deserve true love, like all others do?
Or am I to remain a loser, one of the few?
Death, a distant enticement, less an option,
Life unlivable, can’t conjure up a solution.
Living hell on earth. Inevitable,
Other’s fortune, painfully enviable.
Remorse is all I have left in my soul,
Loneliness, depression have taken their toll,
A dead weight I have become on this world,
But deep inside me, buried, wisdom untold.
Do not fall in love I would preach,
If you do, do not lose, I would teach,
Or you could forget to live and to smile,
And like me, forever, walk the lonely mile.
- The Hallaay
